Aloha, hope you and yours had a heartfelt Thanksgiving.
My husband and I spent our holiday with a couple of close friends who are right here in our neighbourhood. I love that. We leave and within five minutes we’re home. Ready to hang out in pyjamas after a delectable meal and soul-satisfying company.
And there’s more - my heart expanded even bigger the day after Thanksgiving when my siblings and I had a video chat. To feel as if I’m with them during the holidays is like sitting in front of a magical crackling fireplace with my fleece throw while sipping hot chocolate - pure comfort.
What I’ve Been Up To
What I’m about to share with you may sound like a challenge (and I assure you I have my moments) but what it really is - is a love story.
So, I woke up and whoa! I couldn’t turn without sharp pain. I cried out. It was my back. That was over a month ago. Days after my first sharp pain incident, I’m sitting at the computer ready to write my post. I lean toward the computer and whoa - it happens again. After crying out, I slowly sat back. My husband wasn’t home to help me, so I began praying and asking for assistance to get to my bed. At caterpillar pace, I made my way to my bed where I stayed the rest of the day.
Friend, since those beginning days of healing, I’ve had my ups and downs.
My Healing Process
While uncomfortably sitting, I have the thought, I have to heal this. Yoga, I need yoga. I turn to YouTube. I searched for yoga. The first thing I see is restorative yoga. Hmm… I had not heard of restorative yoga. I giggle and whisper, thank you, angels.
Although it’s not easy (some days downright painful) to stretch my body and hold the stretch, I feel the healing goodness of it deep in my core. After several days of trying to get through my yoga routine, I had an a-ha moment - a moment of clarity.
My body was giving me a clarion call. An appeal to keep-on-keepin’ on. Not just get through it, but to dial into the underlying cause. I can’t just pull out weeds, I have to get to those roots, I have to dive deep.
My body's pain signals were catapulting me to heal! Fully, soulfully, completely…
Off to Body Work, I Go
The bodyworker stands directly in front of me and asks me to walk toward her. She then has me move this way and that. Sharp-eyed she pays close attention to my every move. Under her scrutiny, I notice discomfort in my belly. I remind myself that whatever I’m going through there is no need to be self-conscious about it. Regardless of what it is, it will assist me with growing and that’s always a good thing. So no need for judgment. As I breathe out and let go of judgment, I can clearly hear her and take in whatever she has to offer.
Immediately she noticed that I was walking improperly. I tell her that I broke my foot many years ago. Well, friend, much to my surprise, I’m told that from wearing a cast I learned to walk incorrectly, which apparently I’m still doing. Hence, the back issue.
I’m now in the process of learning to rewalk. I told my bodyworker that it’s akin to chewing gum, rubbing my belly, and patting my head all while just doing- what usually is a common movement - walking.
There’s More to It
Next, I’m lying on a massage table. She asks me some more body questions. Have I ever been hurt here, or here, how about here? As she touches, massages, and moves different body parts.
I calmly told her about my childhood abuse. She acts shocked and says, “Girl, you’ve done a hell of a lot of healing. You have no trauma or drama within your words or energy field. I mean none at all.”
I just respond, “Yep.”
I understand now. My body is letting go of what my mind and heart let go of years ago.
Yes, I’m ready. Yes, I can do this. YES, I’m healing!
YES!!
I AM learning to walk properly, and I AM giving my body the space and encouragement to let go.
I’m now claiming as I go about my healing day that healing comes easily to me. I AM taking authority with my healing process, and although it’s trying and at times tedious, I’m grateful for it.
Love is My Compass
Dear, I’m loving my way through. When I wake up and I’m hurting, I gently talk to my body with reassuring words, much the way one would a child. (After all, the abuse happened to me as a child, and the broken foot happened as a girl in the process of becoming a woman.)
I love you. It’s all going to be okay. This won’t go on forever. We’re healing and that is our gift.
I then follow with an adaptation of the Hooponopono Hawaiian prayer - I love you body. I’m so sorry for forgetting who I really am. Please forgive me. Thank you.
Then throughout the day, I tell my body how much I love it. I’m especially enjoying falling in love with my belly. And of course, I take time to do my restorative yoga. On the days I’m up for it, I even walk a bit.
I’m falling in love with my body.
So you see, it is a love story. The story of discovery, patience, healing, and dedication to the power of love I have for my body, for my precious housing temple that’s been so graciously gifted to me.
We’ve all been gifted with our bodies.
In honor of this gracious gift, today instead of looking at your inner joy compass, will take a peek at your inner love compass. And will direct this love compass toward your body.
“Eventually you will come to understand that love heals everything, and love is all there is." - Gary Zukav.
Inner Love Compass
Please take in a delicious breath. You may want to close your eyes and put your hand on your heart.
Go ahead and take a moment and think about why you appreciate your body.
Now…slowly and gently while holding love for your body, ask your body:
What do you need?
What do you want?
How can I love you more?
If you could talk with me, what would you like to share?
I love you body.
You may want to go to specific body parts and tell those parts that you love them.
“Your body is your home, your vessel in life. It needs to be respected and loved.” Iskra Lawrence
May we all grow more in love with our bodies.
Note:
Since I’m in a deep healing state and the holidays are here, I’ll be taking time off for the month of Dec. However, I will have a previous post reposted each week. I’ll pick the best, meaning those most viewed, holiday posts that I believe will be well worth revisiting.
Also, there are some exciting changes coming here on Godly Goodies. I’ll be offering some new stuff for all the subscribers and additional offerings for the paid subscribers. I appreciate each of you so very much.
I hope you have many sweet, tender, loving moments throughout the holidays.
Bless you and yours.
With all my love,
Gloria
Thank you and Be Well.
Beautiful and I’m glad you are taking time for you and for healing ❤️